How to Reinvent Yourself
It's a feeling of being in a constant limbo. When it happens, mentally, emotionally, and physically I feel stuck. It's like there is a haze between myself and the world around me. I'm present, but not fully. It feels like I don't have a clear sense of who I am. At times I feel as confused about life as a teenager or as jaded as a 903 year old man.
I used to think that this feeling was wrong, and that something just wasn't right with my life. Then I realized that it was normal, and more importantly, it needed to happen. When I feel this way, I'm being broken down to be built up.
For example, last week I felt frustrated with life. I felt like my schedule was more in control of my life than me. Feeling frustrated was my own way of authenticating and validating my emotions. It helped me process my thoughts and helped show me what was really important to me in my life. After that, it was easy to prioritize the people in my life over other small things. I became more focused throughout the day, passionate about what was in my life, and happier with the people around me.
My subconscious self found a way to process the negativity out to let the brighter parts of me thrive. In that transition, I defined myself. That time and every time, I simply get to be the person who I want to be. I can reinvent who I am anytime anywhere. I can either be who I want to be or who I don't want to be; I choose the first option. It's never too late for a new beginning.