My Christmas Carol (a tribute to Charles Dickens)

It's the night before Christmas, and the world seems so still to me. The night is quiet, the air is cool, and the moon is the brightest thing in the clear sky. Since it's close to the end of the year, it's the perfect time to ponder and wonder.

The past has passed, but still within me. It resides in my memories and everything else in me. I am a result of my past actions and experiences. I've made many great friends over the years. I think about them more than they probably think I do. Even if I haven't talked to them in years, I still cherish my past experiences; they've helped me grow.

I'm not who I used to be, I'm a more developed version of me. I used to be really shy. I used to be more introverted. I used to be socially awkward. Now I'm a a better version of me than I've ever been thanks to all of my friends, family, classmates, co-workers, colleagues, and acquaintances who've blessed me in one way or another. If you know me, take comfort in knowing that I'm thankful to have you in my life.

I know I'm not "perfect." My past has a good amount of pain, heartache, and dark clouds. There were many times I should've tried harder, said something I should've, or moments I let slip by. I've tried my hardest to atone my mistakes. I've learned to take painful experiences as powerful lessons for personal growth. I can truthfully look back on my life and say that I've had a good life.

Now in the present I try to be the best version of me possible. With each passing day, I live in an effort to balance the lessons I've gained in the past and my hopes for the future. I try to be an exemplary role model for my family and anyone who might look up to me. Every day I try to make as little mistakes as possible. Tonight I can honestly say that I'm truly happy. I have a great family. My friends are the best. My career is exactly what I want it to be for now. I'm satisfied with where my life is and where it's going.

For the future, my heart is full of hope and faith. I believe that my better days are ahead. I have faith that all my efforts to do good in this world isn't in vain; that something profound will erupt and surprise me. I believe that the world is a kinder and more loving place than I've dared myself to imagine. 

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